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Friday, May 3, 2013
@ 2:58 AM At 1:59am Yes hi here's another post since I'm bored. Time check: 1:59am. Such a beautiful timing don't you think so? One more minute till it's 2... It's like....the brink of change. Hahaha ok sorry I'm talking gibberish. I was asleep since 630pm but I've woken up already... Half of me woke up anyway. Been browsing through past photos (Will blog about Swee Choon next time) and blogs and I realized.....things really, really changed a lot. Take a friend for example. We used to hang out alllll the time, shared stuff (I really trusted her) and had fun. But gradually... Things changed and her posts changed from being with me to against me. I remember how that was one of the most gruelling periods I had to go through. Till today I don't know why it happened and I just don't have the courage to ask her. I still remember the fun times we had quite vividly and I doubt it will ever go away. SO! The sudden urge to blog about this. Life changes..... People leave and go. So cliche but yes haha.  I guess if there are people I miss in my life, it would be my secondary school friends and yes, certain ex-es. CERTAIN ONLY. Don't kpkb. Yes yes weird right? But yeah. It's not about still having feelings for them. It's remembering the times when we would joke around and guai lan each other. When we have fun together like friends and having a great time. I would really love to re-welcome my sec sch friends and certain ex-es in to my life but I don't know how. That girl who I talked about above? Well I am confident that she is still the same but I doubt we can get along anymore. Not after what she did. Maybe I would forgive her if I knew why. But maybe not. Too many maybes. And there's some ex-es who are douche-bags for picking on me. Yet... I wouldn't mind being friends again. With some. It's tiring to receive and give hate all the time. I'd rather have a neutral territory. I'm not saying it won't be weird. Why won't it be? But I believe that we've all grown up. I have a more open mindset than before and time heals everything. And without them, I wouldn't be who I am today. I'd be much more insensitive, annoying and other bad things. Anyway to sum everything up..... I'd try my best to be better. To be more optimistic (top of my list), to be less hyper, try to be less socially awkward, get rid of my stutter/incoherent train thoughts when I'm nervous, making it a point to interact with my family more, study more, eat less, exercise more, get out more, enjoy life. So yeah. Thanks to those who even bothered to read till here. You must be really bored huh?  |
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